Undercurrent

noun

A current below the surface. A mood below the surface. An emotion that is not apparent.

I currently have this undercurrent of anxiety. Maybe fretfulness is a better word. Actually, I like the word heebie-jeebies more, I think it adds a sense of jollification!

Here's the thing...I am leaving in a few days for a pilgrimage in Spain, specifically, The Camino Frances. My intention is to walk more that 500 miles with nothing but my backpack. Just me and my backpack.

It's hard to put into words but I've been a little cranky and emotional. Understandable for sure so I am trying to show myself a little grace. I did this pilgimage last year and it filled me with such joy (even though it was hard) that I feel pulled to do it again.

As the Jason Mraz song "Living in the Moment" says:

"I will not waste my days, making up all kinds of ways to worry about all the things that will not happen to me."

And that is what fear is, imagining worst case scenarios!

So I hope you too can live in the moment and let go of fear and get out there and live the life you've imagined!